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Will it be Canon 450D or Nikon D40x for a noob like me?

maldiita — Thu, 19 Jun 2008 07:20:18 +0000

My hands are itching to get a Digital SLR camera. I’ve been poking my nose around the threads and blogs of photog-hobbyists and I’ve been influenced to get either a Canon 450D or a Nikon D40x. I don’t know yet. I’m a really impulsive buyer, that’s why I really want to think about this first, and of course, I want to know which SLR is better. Is it the Canon or the Nikon? I’m a noob, so I wouldn’t know. Lol.

Here’s a graphic display, for those who have no idea what I’m talking about:

Anyway, I’m really excited. I even want to take classes, if my schedule permits me to do so. Kaso hindi eh, haha. So I figured, I’d just teach my self. I’ve always wanted to pursue photography, ngayon ko lang siya natupad kasi may means na ako. So, back to my SLR’s. I’m sort of tilting over to the Canon-ians side, but if I think about it money-wise, Nikon D40x is much cheaper right? My mom’s going to Vietnam tonight and I asked her to look for Canon SLR’s as well as Nikon, hoping that it would be cheap there. Sana. Like 50% less the price here sana, but who am I kidding right? Haha. If it were that cheap there, lahat na ng photography hobbyists would shop there. Haay. So right now, I’ve promised myself to research as many as I can about Camera’s and Photography. I just hope I find more and more sites and step by step help from the fascinating world that is the internet. If anyone can help me out or get me started, that would be great! A whole lot of thanks to you!

I’m with stupid <—

maldiita — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 10:46:39 +0000

Bakit ganon? Nakakainis. Ako na lang ng ako ang habol ng habol. Ako nalang ng ako yung may gusto makasama siya. Feeling ko tuloy mas mahal ko siya kesa sa mahal niya ko. I hate it!

Ayoko ng ganito. Gusto ko syempre, as a girl, ako ang mas minamahal. Ewan ko ba. Lagi ko nalang nafifeel to sa kanya. Katulad ngayong week na to, 5 days free yung house, I hinted na matulog sya dito, pero sabi nya 1 day lang daw siya pwede. Wtf dba?! Any guy you propose that to would jump to the idea. Pero siya, hindi. Kesyo daw kasi hahanapin siya sa bahay, at ano daw ang sasabihin niya pag tinanong siya. Hello?!? Ang dami daming pwede idahilan. Ang sabihin mo ayaw mo lang. I just don’t understand. I really don’t. I’m hurt, ‘coz I feel like I’m always available for him. Tapos siya, parang siya yung laging tumatanggi. I am sure he has no one on the side. I trust him, and I KNOW walang iba. It just pisses me off when he does this to me. Yung tipong magyayaya ako ng biglaan, yung day na wala kaming naka set na lakad, tapos aayaw siya kasi tinatamad or what not. Hindi ko ma-explain eh. I really don’t understand. I know he loves me, but I feel he loves me not as much as I love him, and it hurts me to feel that. Whenever I get pissed like this, I promise myself na hindi na ako magiging ganito, na gugustuhin siyang makita lagi, makasama lagi, magyayaya lagi. Pero pag lumipas na yung galit ko sa kanya, I just return to normal. Nagiging sobrang lambing ko nanaman, gusto ko nanaman siya laging kasama. In short, habol na naman ako ng habol. I fucking hate it. I want to change. I want to NOT be available for him naman. Gusto ko naman matuto tumanggi sakanya, para ma-feel niya yung nafi-feel ko. Pero everytime, I lose to what I feel. I revert back to how I usually am. Haaay. Now, I don’t know what to do. Parang nakakapagod tanggihan ka madalas. I don’t want to promise myself na magbabago na ko, na naman. Kasi, I honestly don’t know if I would be able to keep it. Maiinis lang ako sa sarili ko. But I’m going to try harder. I told him, kahit isang araw, wag na siya matulog dito. Ok lang sakin. I have already set my mind that I’m going to be alone the next 5 days. Ayoko na mag habol, I’m so tired and I feel so stupid. Ganito ba talaga pag nagmamahal ka? Nagmumukha kang tanga? Fuck, then I hate love. \m/

Gaya-Gayang Pinoy

maldiita — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 10:34:32 +0000

Shet!

Bakit ganun noh?

Ang galing gumaya ng mga pilipino. I can’t understand why. I’ll give you some examples ha.

Filipino Version: — American Version:

Singing Bee by ABS CBN — Don’t Forget the Lyrics by FOX

Philippine Idol by ABC 5/Pinoy Idol by GMA 7 — American Idol by FOX

Kakasa ka ba sa Grade 5? by GMA 7 — Are you smarter than a 5th Grader? by FOX

Pinoy Big Brother by ABS CBN — Big Brother by CBS

Survivor Philippines by GMA 7— Survivor by CBS

These are just some of the many shows na ginaya na ng networks dito. I understand, na kung ano ung mabenta sa masa, doon sila. But It’s just sad that we have to imitate other people’s creativity. Movies are very much imitated as well. I think filipinos are very talented. We can sing, act, dance, and make it into the international scene, pero bakit ganon, we seldom have original storylines, plots, show themes, etc. I think mas mapapansin tayo ng ibang mga bansa kung marami tayong tunay na gawa, don’t you agree? For example, the movie “The Ring” that originally came from Japan, I was so scared to sleep after watching this film. Original yung storya niya, kaya ayun, ginawan na ng remake ng Hollywood hindi ba? After that, came “The Eye”, another asian horror flick, also an original and was made into a remake by Hollywood film makers as well. Galing noh? Kailan kaya tayo magkakaroon ng ganoon kagaling na movie para ma-remake din nila? This is the reason why I don’t really watch tagalog films. I am not against it or anything, but I just feel like most of our films are cliche and very predictable. Our “tele-seryes” are almost all the same in nature, where the bida is most of the time poor tapos inaapi ng mayaman. I am not an expert here, these are just my views on the subject. Feeling ko kasi napaka-gaya gaya natin. We don’t have as much originality when it comes to films and TV shows. It’s like we always base our thinking on what hollywood has done and what they already made famous. Ang fanget. I hope future film makers, writers and producers get the idea that we should think freely. Mag isip tayo ng mga panibagong ideas na pwede talaga nating angkinin. I am not generalizing na lahat ng pelikula natin dito eh ginaya. “Feng Shui” with Kris Aquino, is a good movie. I was able to watch it and I thought it was good. An original story with original twists. Actually, that was the first filipino movie I appreciated. Although I am not a big fan of Kris Aquino, pero the film was quite good. I begin wondering tuloy kung bakit ganito. Maybe it’s because of our “American Superiority Complex”, where we think that everything American is superior/of high nature than everything or anyone else. We Filipinos do have this issue. Kaya tayo nagiging gaya-gaya eh. We can change this, ang kaso eh, alam ba ng mga tao na nagiging gaya-gaya tayo? At gusto ba nilang magbago?

Am I running out of time?

maldiita — Fri, 13 Jun 2008 01:16:27 +0000

Work again. Many bills to pay. But I know onti palang tong bills na binabayaran ko compared to my mom. Parang feeling ko nauubusan na ko ng oras, to excel in my job, to be successful and earn a lot. Everyone tells me that I’m still young, I’m 23, I still have a lot of time daw. But I am really feeling slow paced, I want to move fast, and get what I want, now na. Haay. Ndi naman pwede yun. I’m bored with my job, I feel like my brain is melting. I don’t even get to use it that much where I’m stationed at right now. I feel useless. Although I earn a lot than the usual wage, I still would pay for a real challenge, something that would make me and train me. My boyfriend got a job at San Miguel Corporation, I’m so proud of him. I know he can work his way up. I’m a bit jealous though because I’ve been dreaming about the time when I hand out my resignation here. I want a good company, with good pay, and good compensation and benefits for their people. But there are only a few of those here. But I AM, so proud of him. I hope he does well. We wanted to get jobs abroad but right now, nothing has come up yet. Living here in the Philippines is a blessing, because we are happy and lax people, we have malls that don’t close until 9PM. We have noisy and family-filled christmases and new years. We have close family ties, and see each other often. We have “gimik” places that are open to everyone, even kids below 18 could get a drink, (haha!). But living here is only a blessing if you have money to spend, and right now, the economy here is sinking. Prices of everything are rising to its peeks. Gasoline is Gold nowadays, soon we’ll have bikes to get us to where we’re going. I would give up a lot to get a good paying job abroad. Like everyone else here, I want to get out. I want to save up for my future, so when I get back here I have money to spend. Money for noisy, family-filled christmases and new years, money for malls that don’t close until 9PM, money for “gimiks” and unwinding with friends, most of all, money for a house of my own, and the rest will run it’s course. Am I running out of time yet? I don’t know. I hope not.

Politics in the work place: Sucks Bigtime!

maldiita — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 14:15:44 +0000

To start my new blog with a bang, I would very much like to share my thoughts about the place where I work. I work inside the “perfect” walls of a hotel, but of course, surprise-surprise, nothing is “perfect”.

When I started working there, I was so excited. Naisip ko, shit, this is a very good opportunity for me, kasi the hotel is well known. Pero I was so wrong, now I want to get out. The rooms are nice sana, but when you stay there na, it’s either you’ll smell something bad, or you’ll see something crawling on your floors, or it could be bad service from the staff. Tapos the managers there have favorites, although I understand that it is still normal, pero It’s just too much for me. I really get pissed off. Kasi sobra na eh, there was this instance where I was sick, so I called to tell my manager I wasn’t going to be reporting for work. Instead of helping me out, and getting someone to cover my shift, he just says that I need to call the hotel and do it myself, because apparently that is the new rule. Dati naman sila talaga ang dapat maghanap ng kapalit mo e, pero sige. So, in respect of the new rule, I did try to find someone to cover me. I let my manager know that I have found a way around the schedule so no one will be forced to do a straight shift because of my absence. Pero, guess what, hindi nila pinayagan. Kelangan daw magstraight parin yung ka-officemate ko, dahil ndi daw kaya ng manning, kahit alam naman naming lahat na it could work. So the result is, I still had to report to work, even if that night I was not feeling very good, and I was burning with fever. Buti nalang kamo I felt okey the next day, so I went straight to work kahit medyo masakit pa katawan ko. Nakakasama lang kasi ng loob eh, and minsan lng ako magabsent, minsan lang ako magkasakit, kasalanan ko ba yun? There’s this group of girls na paborito ng lahat, Don’t get me wrong, I’m not at all insecure, jealous, or whatsoever. It’s just that, one time, one of them did not come to work, and you know what the reason was?? Her back ached. Yeah, you read correctly. HER BACK ACHED, SUMAKIT DAW YUNG LIKOD NYA. I mean, wtf right?! They keep emailing these messages where they tell everyone that they can only be absent if they have something contagious or have contracted a virus, and kung hindi daw, kelangan pumasok ka paren. But what happened? She still got her free day to rest her “ACHING BACK”. No questions asked. It is just so fucking unfair, you know? I know I sound like a little cry baby, babbling on and on about something that I can not change, but it just pisses me off. This girl that I’m talking about, knows her hold over the managers. She likes emailing a lot too, like she can email you regarding your performance (when she was not even authorized to do so then, pero ngayon, oo na-promote siya, see the favoritism?), naka cc pa yun sa mga boss, so parang ang dating she’s taking the initiative, pero nagpapasikat lang naman siya. She’s so sip sip pa. My goodness, she’d call our big boss “Daddy”, and everytime she did this, I wanted to puke! I heard even back in college she tried calling her prof “Daddy”, is this her modus operandi to make herself the favorite? Haay. It just kills me to be treated unfairly, I mean, I don’t want to be the favorite, It would be nice but I would be embarassed, I just want everyone to be treated equally. There’s another favorite girl eh, one time we were told not to use radios where guests can see us, pero we still used it constantly at the front desk. Guess who got growled at by the boss? Just me. Me, alone, and no one else. When it was clear that we both were using the radio naman. Speaking of that Boss, he gave me very low evaluation marks just because he was angry at me. Tama ba yun? Na gawin niyang personal ang trabaho? I do my job well, so he did not need to be so hard on me, but he still was. Asshole! He likes to get angry and shout at people when he feels like it, even though you did not do anything. He curses, and says mean things. Sometimes naman, okey sya. Parang baliw noh? I really don’t like how they treat us. It’s like, they’re the popular kids, and they pick on us pretty people, hahaha. Hay naku, ewan ko ba. Ang dami pa ngang instances which proves how unfair people are there eh. Pag inisa isa ko pa, naku we’ll take really long. Hindi lang ako ang nakakapansin nung injustice ha, marami din. It’s just that, this is my first job, and this is how it is ba? They treat you like crap, whenever they want to? I can’t wait to pass my resignation letter, and get a job abroad. Or kahit hindi abroad eh, kahit sa good company lang, with good people, good pay, and good benefits. Is that too much to ask? Haaaaay Buhay!!