Am I running out of time?

Work again. Many bills to pay. But I know onti palang tong bills na binabayaran ko compared to my mom. Parang feeling ko nauubusan na ko ng oras, to excel in my job, to be successful and earn a lot. Everyone tells me that I’m still young, I’m 23, I still have a lot of time daw. But I am really feeling slow paced, I want to move fast, and get what I want, now na. Haay. Ndi naman pwede yun. I’m bored with my job, I feel like my brain is melting. I don’t even get to use it that much where I’m stationed at right now. I feel useless. Although I earn a lot than the usual wage, I still would pay for a real challenge, something that would make me and train me. My boyfriend got a job at San Miguel Corporation, I’m so proud of him. I know he can work his way up. I’m a bit jealous though because I’ve been dreaming about the time when I hand out my resignation here. I want a good company, with good pay, and good compensation and benefits for their people. But there are only a few of those here. But I AM, so proud of him. I hope he does well. We wanted to get jobs abroad but right now, nothing has come up yet. Living here in the Philippines is a blessing, because we are happy and lax people, we have malls that don’t close until 9PM. We have noisy and family-filled christmases and new years. We have close family ties, and see each other often. We have “gimik” places that are open to everyone, even kids below 18 could get a drink, (haha!). But living here is only a blessing if you have money to spend, and right now, the economy here is sinking. Prices of everything are rising to its peeks. Gasoline is Gold nowadays, soon we’ll have bikes to get us to where we’re going. I would give up a lot to get a good paying job abroad. Like everyone else here, I want to get out. I want to save up for my future, so when I get back here I have money to spend. Money for noisy, family-filled christmases and new years, money for malls that don’t close until 9PM, money for “gimiks” and unwinding with friends, most of all, money for a house of my own, and the rest will run it’s course. Am I running out of time yet? I don’t know. I hope not.